As an abstract oil painter, my work is a vivid reflection of the beautifully chaotic intricacies of my mind. My canvases burst with color, bold shapes, and dynamic movement—each piece an exploration of my intense emotions and the depth of my inner landscape. For many years, I struggled to connect my emotional state with my art, unknowingly influenced by the complexities of ADHD. Despite leading what many would consider a “perfect life,” I felt isolated in the whirlwind of my thoughts, perpetually searching without knowing what I sought.
It wasn’t until I faced a personal crisis and embraced painting as a long-held dream that I discovered a profound sense of clarity. The act of painting became a sanctuary where time seemed to stop, and my inner chaos found solace. I immersed myself in the creamy texture of oil paints, reveling in their slow drying time which harmonized with my ability to hyperfocus. This synergy allowed me to channel my ADHD into a productive and fulfilling creative process.
My choice of colors—saturated, jewel-toned pigments and bright warm opaques—mirrors the excitement and contrasts within me. Each brush is chosen for how it feels and how it moves the paint across the canvas. Painting is not only a cathartic outlet, each brushstroke is an enjoyable tactile experience.?
The images I create are expressions of my previously suppressed emotional states: joy, anxiety, insecurity, anger, curiosity, and the complexities of intimacy and sexuality. My paintings are a true representation of my authentic self. Through this artistic journey, I have gained valuable insights into my identity and relationships. At forty-three, I embraced my sexuality, found my life partner, Kat, and began to finally understand and manage my ADHD more effectively.
These personal revelations have led me to a deeper connection with my feelings, more meaningful relationships, and a greater understanding of the world around me. I hope my art resonates with viewers and that my story inspires others to seek their own paths to self-discovery and fulfillment.
Visit www.nicolemcnamaraart.com to learn more.
Arts Director Little Paint Box Studios
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