Faith is the most auspicious thing of the heart

Everyone believes in something without proof without doubt. For example, we believe tomorrow will come, everything will be just as today, when there's actually no proof that it would. We made assumptions that things would be normal based on past experiences, but that's not “proof" isn't it? It's just a very strong assumption. For all we know, war could break out, natural disaster could happen, some super virus could hit humanity… Everything could change.

But no, you aren't really prepared for it. You behave as if tomorrow will come as the today, and yesterday and many days before that. That sense of security is a belief without any evidence. Do you believe in the goodness of people? Do you believe in love? Do you believe in human rights, that all people are born equal? … All of those ideals are beliefs. They are beliefs that not only come without evidence, if we look back into human history, there are plenty of evidences which prove the opposite, that human beings aren't born equal, people were violent and cruel… And yet, most of us believe we should strive to be better.

Why would anyone choose to believe such things? I don't know.Because we have compassion and empathy? And I think you should learn to grow some of those too, it's good for you. I see this a lot with born-again Atheists who break out from deeply religious families. It took them a lot of leave their faith, they must prove not only religion is wrong and useless, they must also prove and be confirmed that faith is wrong and useless. They believe in Atheism with the same zeal as a religious fundamentalist. Everything must be either/or, black and white. Either you believe in nothing, or you're a dumb fuck who believe in invisible sky father.

In a way, they never really break out from their religion. They just find another belief. There's nothing wrong with having faith. One could believe in an invisible sky father, Santa Clause or whatever. Believing in it doesn't make people stupid or unreasonable. As long as people don't impose their beliefs onto others, everyone thing is great. Live, and let others live. Don't judge. Don't think just because you decide to believe differently, that somehow makes you better than others. Believing that makes you no different from the religious fanatics.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. To me this speaks of the heart knowing, but where's the evidence of love? First off, I would not call faith evidence of things not seen. Faith is belief in something without proof. If I have faith that the moon is made of cheese and the habitat for a colony of space traveling mice, it's not evidence that such exists. Secondly, love is just one of many intangible objects. Intangible objects do exist. And though there are many, many more intangible objects, we find that they all are ideas or concepts existing in mankind’s thoughts and may manifest themselves in mankind’s deeds. I do not believe humans are worthless. I do not believe humans are unimportant. I do not believe humanity is meaningless. Do I have any evidence for this belief? No. None at all. And yet, I can’t shake the belief. I think you're talking about love for God or prophet, You've never read about someone who loves his God or prophet from the depth of his heart?

Well I have read about many such people. First of all “Meera Bai” a female devotee of Hindu god “Krishna”,you may have seen him somewhere, that blue guy with a flute, She was a 16th century Hindu mystic poet, There are so many legends about Meera mention her fearless disregard to her husband and his family and social conventions,her treating Krishna as her husband and she being persecuted by her in-laws for her religious devotion and faith.

Now back to a a throw back picture of Class 12, chemistry practicals. Last practicals.Sir (after asking me 6 tough questions) - what is the formula of naphthalene? Me - I don't know sir! “ Go and read at home" 12th boards results came - 94.8%.. I don't exactly remember my numbers, but I got 95 in chemistry and 99 in physical education. Amidst in overconfidence that I will come first in class, a call came. “ Ashok Saksena (name not changed, buddy I'm proud of you now) came first, you are second “ “B.. But..but how? How is this possible? I have come first in every damn exam since class 11”

Later I checked his marks. He scored just 1 mark more than me, and came first. I checked where I went wrong, as my marks were pretty good.. 29 /30 in chemistry practicals. That one mark, ONE. That one mark haunted me for several days. Then I checked practical marks of other students. Roll number 41 got 30/30,65 got 30/30. Everyone got 30/30. I was the only one who got 29. I cursed God. Why it has to be me? What was my fault? Was I so bad in front of his eyes? All these questions surrounded me and kept hounding me, till one day I realised, that there can't be any God. Otherwise I couldn't have come second.

Anyways, time passed by, and my disbelief grew. I had a Muslim roommate during my coaching, and just to piss him off, I gave him logics and arguments as why there is no God, and why his offering namaaz is futile. He said something one day that I still remember. “ Bhai, tu ek cheez ke liye bhagwan ko ulta seedha bol raha hai. Aankehin khol ke dekh, duniya tere chemistry practical marks se bohot badi hai “ I didn't realise it back then. The importance of the line. In my first year MBBS, my roommate was a devotee of Shri Mahadev. I used to make fun of him, day in and out, giving those typical arguments like “agar bhagwan sab thik kar deta to hum doctors ki kya zaroorat thi “

Days passed by, and 3 rd year came. A Muslim girl became my very good friend, and we used to talk day in and out. And my legacy of discarding and insulting God's continued. She got offended every time I discarded Gods, although I never said anything bad about her religion ( because you know why). She said one day “ atleast apne bhagwan pe to believe kar “. One day, we had an argument over Kashmir issue, and she said very disturbing things about Indian Army. That was the day when I shouted at her black and blue, even thew a few slangs too.

We stopped talking . I used to listen “ we don't talk anymore “ by Charlie Puth often remembering her. Although I was not even 1% sorry of defending our army, because to me my country and Indian army was and is far greater any random girl any day. Owning to that, and immense pressure of study seeing my friends doing well and me being an average , I steadily fell into depression. My marks fell down even steeper and I was in the verge of failing in pediatrics. I went to a psychiatrist, a therapist everything, all in vain. I never told this to my friends, as I knew, all they will do is make fun of me. Being a “ Man” and still crying.

At this time, I was neither a theist or an atheist. In fact I had no time thinking about them, as I was in depression. Earlier I heard about Hanuman Chalis and how it had some kind of divine power and made us strong. I thought of giving it a try ( earlier I made fun of that). As soon as I started it, halfway through the Chalisa, it seemed like flood gates opened and tears started dropping involuntarily. 2 minutes to that, I started crying. Really loud. I cried a lot, but listened to it whole. I wasn't able to concentrate in it as I was crying, so I listened again. This time with concentration.

There is a line in Shri Hanuman Chalisa : "Sankat Kate mite sab peera" "Jo sumire Hanumat Balveera" It meant, all the pity, all the pain will go away, if you start to preach Shri Bajranga Bali’s name. I did it. And decided to transform my life. I turned to a complete vegetarian, became an Ardent devotee of Bajarang Bali. Whenever I got time, I used to listen to it. Studying, walking, before going to bed, after waking up. And my life changed. Fell in love with an amazing girl, marks improved, secured a good rank and finally, got an amazing job. Jay Shri Hanuman Ji Ki